My secret desire

I actually a pathetic lonely girl

I feel too much, Im so sensitive ...

I get sad, upset, and mad often ...

But really that's just one of my personalities ...

I always always wish ...

That one day I will meet someone that can get along with me :(

I want to have good friends,

I want to hang out, study together, have a chat, and doing many things together ..

But the fact is ...

I dont have many friends ...

Only one of my good friends that still contact me often ..

It's so lonely ...

Sometimes I need others help,

for example when Im absent or when we need to split into groups...

It is so hard for me,

none that want to be with me

I actually wonder why

I never try to hate or do something bad to others

I dont like to badmouth ppl

I even speak as politely as I can

Whats so wrong with me?

What part of me that ppl dont like?

Well, I do realize some bad sides of me..

I am too honest about opinion, that makes me sarcasm ..

I am not too friendly to other ppl too and I kinda spoiled ...

But, is that part of me so bad?

I see many ppl that often badmouth other, gossiping, rude words ..

But they have many friends Q_Q

Today, I played a game ...

In that game, there's a character that change himself into a delinquent just so that he can have friends

Should I do that too? I wonder ...