My friends

I want to write about my friends this time :

First, let's start with "R"
R and I is so close. We know about each others family matters, love matters, school matters, and many more.
She often sleep over at my home. We laugh and cry together so much. My mother is so close to her too. She resembled my mother's personality so well. But, to be honest. She kinda unlucky with boys just like me,but different case. I never even once have a boyfriend, she ever had relationship three times. But all ends so badly. We often help each other. I already know her since 7th grade. Actually, she is my first friend that ever hug me. She is such a big sis figure to me. She is stylist and know a lot of things. So, I can have a lot of chat with her. I really like her so much!

Next is "P"
I met her when Im at 8 grade, we get along real fast because of personality match.
I am that kind of person that speak about many kind of things, and she likes to hear about many kinds of things. Besides, we have similiar interests. We argue a lot but that never last long. She is older than me. But, a part of her made me think that she is younger than me.Of course, There are some of her personality that kind of upset me. But, I get away with it and I still like her so much! I believe that someone like her is very rare. She will listen to everything I tell her, and I'm so happy about that because I need someone who I can share my knowledge with. I am so sad that she moved to different high school. I miss her so badly. She is such a busy person, I cant easily meet her. I never see her again since the start of high school. I will never forget her.I just hope that she will never forget me too.

Then, "N"
I already know her for about 8 months. She is so nice and care about other ppl. She is very easy going and liked. I am very happy when she said Im her friend. And she make me know some of her friends too. But, problems dont seem like make us closer. It makes us separated farther. She is very moody. Even more that I am! So we dont get along too well. And such an active girl like her doenst suit me such a quiet girl like me. She likes to badmouth ppl sometimes too. Everything actually so nice between us before and I dont really care abot this and that matter. But she had so many new friends. And I think her new friends dont like how he sit around and hang out with me. When she is with her new friends, she will go to the canteen or talking abt some random ppl i dont know. The way they are having fun is so hard to understand for me. Well, I cant blame her. Of course it will be nicer to have friends from the same class. So, what can I do abt it?

Actually, I have other friends too.
But they are mostly already have their own groups.
Even if I suit with a person, doesnt mean that person like me too.

I am alone and so pathetic. When it is a school break, I often eat my lunch alone, and alone alone alone!
I know this is not the worst possible case. I need to be strong. Many ppl that is in worst situation than I am.
I know! But still ... I - am - so - lonely ... :(